My mom is one of the most resilient people I know.
If you have encountered her, she is full of love and laughs. She is a social butterfly. I joke and call her a Facebook celebrity all the time because she touches so many people with her warm reach.
She has been battling with cancer for pretty much fifteen years now. The first time the cancer showed radiation sent it away for a few years and the second time she had to have chemo treatment and a double mastectomy. Then it was in remission until a few years ago. Since then, she has been on ten different chemo medications, both IV and oral, and endured countless side effects, including semi-paralysis of her right hand. She had to learn to do things with her left hand, cope with the fatigue and pain that is a daily constant, and still she is a radiant, shining light warming all around her with that presence. In the summer she loves to garden and her home is decorated with flowers that she upkeeps daily that mimic the beauty and resilience that she has inside of her.
When I first had the idea to make clothing as a form of art therapy, before Resilience was established, I designed my first t-shirt that displayed my feelings toward cancer after my mom had a particularly bad day. At this same time period, I wasn't doing well mentally and had very bad insomnia. I was up late and sketching ideas and had no idea how to even make clothing at the time. Before I taught myself screen-printing, this one night, probably at least 1 or 2 am, I googled how to make a t-shirt and went to my local 24 hour Walmart and got some supplies to iron on my design I drew that night onto a shirt. I made the shirt that night and it was not very good and I think the iron on design came off pretty much after one wash, but my retro 'fuck fuck fuck cancer' design was successfully made into a shirt and I was proud of it and it began my interest in making clothing with statements and messages I believed in. Thus, Resilience was born. It wasn't until a year later that I recreated that first design and made it available to the public, during my second launch of clothing. There are still a few remaining sizes available here:
Anyway, this past week, my mom has once again been facing the wrath of cancer's grasp. She was having trouble breathing and went to the hospital where they ended up having to drain her lung of fluid. It turns out that cancer has shown itself on top of her lungs and now she has to undergo new treatment options.
This news has been very hard for myself and my family emotionally, but because of mom, we are all warriors and we are resilient. My mom's strength and love continues to guide us all as we endure the storm.
Thank you for taking the time to read this week's blog. I haven't been very productive this weekend and mostly played a new video game to occupy my mind but I am here showing up with the weekly Wednesday Worm, and this has been healing for me, so I appreciate and love you all.